Faith Walk: An Adult's Crawl and Then Walk as a Baby Christian

I was reborn as a child several times and each time it meant a lot to me but as an adult, I chose to be reborn again and this time it was truly monumental. I finally had the ability to control my own circumstances and take the walk I wanted to take. I was a baby Christian because I was new in my walk with Jesus but I was an adult looking to delve in and find out what it was all about. My early days as an adult born again Christian were filled with wonder. The honeymoon period isn't over. Sometimes I get caught up and lose sight but I'm never far away from that sense of wonderment because of how truly amazing it is.

As a child and a young teen I was exposed to Christianity and joined in youth groups and went to camps and became engrossed. Each time I'd get involved I'd get saved and it wouldn't last because my home life was very non-Christian.

In my later teens and twenties I decided I was a non-believer. Evolution and the big bang theory didn't resonate for me but neither did blind faith. I guess I was an agnostic that lived in torment because I tried to figure out how it all began and the more I couldn't figure it out, the angrier I became. I'd stay awake at night driving myself half crazy trying to figure out where it began and who created that and who created that and so on. I finally came to the conclusion that no one with a brain in their head could believe in something that couldn't be figured out. I didn't understand pain and war and torment and found it to be all consuming when I allowed myself to listen to others talk about religion. I didn't understand free will or that God had a plan for my life that included my asking all those questions.

Throughout my twenties, the knock came repeatedly until I finally answered the door. Many things happened over several years that can only be described as God knocking on my door repeatedly to let me know He really did exist. I've been walking my Christian journey for several years now but am still a baby Christian.

Life as a Christian doesn't mean living in perfection. It means that I recognise my flaws and try to do better and be better. It also means I get to be saved by His grace and that I'm never alone. Life is very different now. I am not perfect and I make mistakes but I try to walk with Jesus every day.